Haters Aren't Cool

I'm late.

Not in the  "Yo, beotch, I'm pregnant!" kind of way; More like the "I'm very sorry for not posting a blog post yesterday" sort of late.
I guess it doesn't really matter since no one really reads this thing-a-mah-jig anyway.
I'm posting today though, so I'll include whatever exerts I did yesterday sooner or later.

Quite a few things happened today, I guess.
Ashley got a boyfriend. It's Michel. They're gonna have adorable little Lebanese babies one day, if they stay together long enough to produce my god children.
She seems a little bit miffed though. Not really miffed but like....it just seems like she's trying to get back at me for something and I don't really know if its just me or if its really happening. Or what I'm supposed to do, if it is really happening. *Sigh*
My bottle ginger is causing me a little bit of exasperation right now. I'm probably just being weird/ schizophrenic/ whatever though.
This is going to be so embarrassing when Lauren reads it. :/
She usually gets around to reading my blog every once in a while. Blehhh.

I always feel a little bleh (Bleh: a. A mood in between sad and neutral which possesses one's body) when I read other peoples blogs and they're posting their feelings since I can never seem to do that.
Sometimes I do a little, but I just backspace it and restart. I feel like I'm lying to myself sometimes. I technically am.

Boyfriend is so nice to me. He sends me really sweet texts and tells me sweet things, etc. It makes me feel happy. He makes me feel happy.
I'm not going to vomit up affection because I know if I go on and on on the many reasons why he's amazing and why I love him it would take waaaaay too long and anyone who didn't really know me would enjoy eating  my head. I need my head. Hrm.
I love him.

Josh likes this girl. I know who it is. Everyone knows I know. -.-
So I've been getting bugged all day.
I mean seriously, if Blondie doesn't want you to know then you shouldn't know, kthxbai. Lol.
At lunch a bunch of my friends cornered me, handed me a napkin (and a pencil, obviously) and told me to right down who Joshie <3's.
My answer?

"Mmmmm, cookies."

'CAUSE EVERYONE LIKES COOKIES, AIGHT?!
Aight.

On the bus Joshie was talking to me to make sure I didn't tell anyone. about "the girl", so (Derp.) we got sidetracked as usual.

It's amazing when we get sidetracked.
Our humor is like.....Family Guy had surprise butt sex with everything. Errything.
So yeah.
We got into convo's like this:

Joshie: Yeah dog. Dawwwg. Doggeh. Puppy dog. Kitten. **Moves hands as if huffing kitten**

Alright so maybe it wasn't a convo. Maybe I used incorrect grammar. But god dammit, this is America. :P
Home of the fatties.
And McDonald's.
And Call of Duty.
Mmmmm, cookies.
Lauren told me the other day that some people deeply breathe in the scent of young kittens to get high.
 It's called kitten huffing.

A hells yes.
America, Ftw.
Canada, Wtf.
Jk Jk.
I've gotten only one view from the big bad country of the maple syrup and the hockey and stuff. :(
Awwww.
Come on Canada, read my blog! I love you....


By the way, you just lost the game.


So yeah. I've been kind of depressed these past few days. Like, I'm pretty happy. But when I'm all alone I just start thinking about how much I fuck up and how stupid I am...
I do it a lot now. It's getting kinda bad. :/

Boyfriend makes it way better, and he doesn't even really know it. When he's talking to me, I just cant feel sad or think about stuff like that. :)

Last night I was on the phone with Evan and Shane and Natalie. I felt like an idiot. I was just so out of it.
I feel so out of place when I talk to groups of people, a lot of times. I think it elevates a little when I'm with boyfriend. I hate looking bad in front of him.
I usually resort to just being quiet, but that makes him sad. I don't want to make him sad.
Gahhh.
I like to mess with him (like play-making fun of, etc) too so he'll get annoyed (well it's probably not really annoyment but I feel like it when I'm thinking of my mistakes). Today I was making fun of him for eating pizza almost everyday and he was like "Mention it one more time and I'll hang up :P"

I pushed it

I always push it

TTWS (STFU) Lol

So yeah. I lose a lot of people because I push boundaries. I knew he was kidding but still. He did hang up on me. And what literally happened was that I went to laughing to silence. I just....can't. I'm not good around people in general. I guess its in my nature to annoy people. Or at least push their buttons.

I'm not sad when I talk to boyfriend though, as I may or may not have said before.
Earlier he asked me if I was okay, and I told him yes. I wasn't lying. I'm perfect then. I'm still pretty perfect. :)

In other news, aside from talking about my love and blehblehblehs: Shane JUST discovered the band Disturbed.
I was like...
WHOA.
That band is freakin' amazing.
I totally respect him more now.
Haha
(I might even stop making jokes about boy scouts) (Maaaybe)

Today was a strange blog post for me.
I had emotions and stuff.
Whooooaaaa. Lol

I cant wait until this Friday.
Might post more.
Bye bye

<3