The Beloved Death of School

SCHOOL. IS. OUT.
Yippee ki yay, mother fucker.

Hahaha.
So today I took my english test which seemed pretty easy.

Everyone was allowed to screw around in all of our other classes.
Theeeeen, at the end of the day, we had a meet-and-weep.

Aka: Chorus sang music about leaving, we ate cake, and everyone sat around and cried.
It's been an...interesting day considering I wont see some of these people again, or atleast until we make out-of-school plans.

I didn't cry until I was on the bus.
Then I used Josh's shirt as a glorified tissue and we listened to my ipod.

I'll miss all my my amazing friends.
 I'll always love ya'll.
Don't let anyone tell you that you aren't the best people on the face of the earth.

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I believe I have come to terms that some people can just be unsufferable bitches sometimes (and that drama is drama) and to try not to let them bother me anymore.
I've been ridiculously stressed out recently, to the point where I've either been a bitch or distant to everyone who's close to me. I guess it's true what Ashley said about how when bad things start happening I "shut down". I've just been uber depressed and such. Almost too emo to function.
I'm so sorry.
I'm getting better now.
I promise.

I think leaving Phillips is helping me feel like myself again. I've been feeling so weird recently.
So even though I'm leaving some of my dearest loved ones, leaving *certain* people (or atleast the thought of it) is definitely making me feel better.

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RAHHHH.
So band camp begins Thursday.
"So, Briana, how shall you spend your day off?"
I'm glad you asked random reader!

I'm going to Adrianna's house to teach her the stuff she missed when she couldn't go to practice. (Color guard).

Boyfriend asked me if I could go to the movies tomorrow but I dont know if I can....
Blarg. I hope I didnt upset him. I know I've been upsetting him for a while now with my blah attitude.

Hopefully everything will work out.

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I'm going to dedicate this paragraph/area to my issues with Boyfriend at the moment.
Alrighty, soooo: I don't really have any issues with him.
Butcha know how I mentioned that I've been feeling weird lately?
I'm pretty sure I've been exerting that on him.

Like, we'll be on the phone and I'll say something and then he just won't talk...
and I'll overreact and be like, "I'll go.", because I don't want him to have to be in a one-sided conversation or anything..
Last night that happened and we almost kinda sorta got into an arguement.
He was like, "Well if you want to leave, you can.", and it wasn't that I wanted to leave it's just that I didn't want....
Gah. So, yeah. I think I made him angry.
I really really want to make him happy.
He hasn't seemed happy recently. I think my inner me just wanted to punch me in the face for how stupid that sounded. I know he hasn't been the happiest person in the world lately.
All sorts of drama and shit and me...
I get paranoid that he'll think I want to dump him. I don't, of course.
I love him to death.

Atleast we'll get to see each other during band camp! That'll be awesomeness in a can made of more awesomeness! With polar bears attached! Which is pretty darn awesome!

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Yesterday, in Science, I was twirling a pair of scissors on my finger and bothering my friend Tasia (Example: "Hey Tasia, does this look dangerous? Dooooes it? TAAASIAAA??) and the scissors flew off my finger and hit me in the face.
Specifically, they hit my lip. So now I have a little bruise on my lip from being autistic with a pair of scissors.

Moral of the story:
Scissors don't like making friends with your face. Quite the opposite actually.

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I have been listening to the band Mindless Self Indulgence so much recently. Ya'll should go listen.
But don't if you have problems with explicit lyrics. xD

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I received my Davidson hoodie (the one I ordered about two months ago) at the meet-and-weep today!
It's fluffy!
I'm wearing it now!
Happy face?

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Well I gotta go!
Okay, not really but I'm not sure of what else to say.
I think I'm going to go read Boyfriend's blog.

Bye-Bye!!

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